Never lie to yourself.
Feel free to lie, cheat and plunder your lives away and hide your skeletons from those you spend your everyday life with. But be honest with yourself, at the very least. What feels like irreparable damage over five years, I am exhausted from trying to be someone I'm not. Overfed myself until I am barely recognisable. This mental unbalance I put myself through had me making all of the wrong decisions, all the while reassuring my deluded self that all was well. How wrong I was. How very wrong.
Now I'd seen the light at the end of the tunnel (and miraculously surfaced) life didn't seem so grotty. I've also lost over a stone and am feeling better.