Monday, 22 October 2012

Falling on deaf ears.

I haven't done a post on my slight loss of hearing because frankly I don't quite no how I feel about it. I suppose it doesn't matter what I should feel. I just need to find a way to deal with it.
It's either going to get worse or stay as it is, as it seems to be a complicated nerve damage issue. We thought it was going to be a simple bone structure problem (imagine an echo bouncing around a cave and one of those angles send the echo off into nothing) or nerves in the ear (which means the sound is getting in there but it isn't registering), that would have been solved with corrective surgery or a hearing aid. But it seems to be the wires (so to say) between my ears and my brain. Which they can't fix. It means I have been referred to specialists who will help me understand the extent of the damage. If it will stay as it is or if it will get worse. If its a recent problem or if I've always been like this. I can hear simple clear sounds with no effort. I can't hear a thing when all sorts of noises are mashed together. Like when the engine is running in a car, I can't really hear the radio. So I just have to wait, trying hard to not feel helpless.
I have always said if we lost almost everything and could keep just one thing, it would be music. I guess I figured I would always be able to hear it.
Here's to finding out it won't get any worse.

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